Not that I realised at the time, but one year ago today I inadvertently created a tipping point that would force me to face many truths I didn’t want to hear…
Sometimes when you’re very close to something, it’s hard to see the exact details of just what it is that you are actually looking at…
Up close, all may seem well…
Up close, only allowed to see a tiny part of the picture…
Your view carefully manipulated by someone else’s cleverly crafted facade…
Stand too close and judgement is easily blurred… blindsided by the glimmer of potential that you think you see…
Pull back…
See the bigger picture…
Pull back…
Hear the words not spoken…
Pull back…
See just how big a mess things really are…
Pull back… Pull back… Pull back…
Amazed at how far back you have to stand to see the full effed up magnitude…
Pause… Breathe… Repeat…
Now…
Pull back… Pull back… Pull back…
Keep going… all the way.., until that big picture diminishes.. fades… over the horizon… perspective taken to vanishing point…
That’s something I’ve been thinking a lot about… I’ve had some massive
lessons over the last few years.
I’ve had some quite astounding liars in my life and yes the truth does come
out, it’s never a matter of if, it’s always a matter of when…
Though I’ve come to the conclusion that yes, liars are not good and it’s
not nice to be betrayed etc…
But what has saddened me most is realising that the most damaging lies,
were the ones I told myself to pretend things weren’t happening… The
worst one of all is holding the belief that deep down all people are
inherently good and have a conscience… Couple that with a morbid
curiousity as to just how far someone will go with a lie…
Yes… Lessons learned the hard way…
Hopefully I’ll remember…
Funny thing… What really brought things into sharp focus was an emergency
dental visit for an abscess on a tooth I’ve had years of problems with and
have tried everything to save… It suddenly struck me, that if you know
that something is rotten deep down and it keeps giving you pain… Don’t
keep trying to fix it or ignore or hope it will get better… Just rip the
bugger out and let it heal cleanly…
So the tooth and truth was out!
I wear my gap as a badge of honor! And to remember to be careful as to what
I allow into my space…
I have no idea why I’m telling you all of this… Though I guess it might
amuse you in the way that tarot readers get amused by analogies…
Have a groovy one! 😀
The pure and blessed way 
Sorry about loss of tooth, and truth (or trust in humanity), Karen. My conclusion has been that trust is way overrated. Humans do all sorts of non-useful things for themselves and others and they don’t necessarily learn from mistakes, so I simply trust them to be…human. It’s not a cynical position, just one that serves to keep that bigger picture in mind so I don’t get blinded by the li..es. 😉
If possible, though, don’t leave that tooth space for too long a space since it will try to close up and misalign everything else (taken from hubby’s lessons with removed teeth).
Blessings!
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That’s not cynical at all Joanne, that’s a very healthy mindset.
The tooth, I am glad to be rid off and I wish I’d done it much sooner…
I am glad to be rid of a few other things too…
The gap… I’m leaving it empty while it heals and fully settles and then I’ll get it sorted… 😉 Blessings!
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