Letting (E)go…

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Welcome to the latest Reiki Blog Hop… The theme was set by Joy Vernon who gave the wonderfully open ended prompt of ‘Letting go’… and there were very many suggestions and ideas given and I thought long and hard and gave weeks of serious consideration to numerous experiences that I’ve had in my Reiki travels… but you know what they say about the best intentions of mice and men… Mmm…. actually… what do they say about the best intentions of mice and men? I don’t think I’ve ever heard anything given beyond that…

So… to make a short story long…

I thought about a couple of experiences that I ‘d had with techniques that I’d been taught… one of them I gave up intentionally, the other accidentally but both together came to underpin my attitude towards teaching Reiki…

The first technique that I ditched was very early on. I was taught  that I should perform this before every healing session and it was basically to imagine stepping into a sack, to pull it up over your head and then to tie a knot in the top… and this would keep your energies intact and free of picking up other people’s icky stuff… Now this just didn’t work for me on so many levels but mostly I think it wreaked havoc with being a visual thinker… I tried it several times and the images that sprung to mind… some of them you just don’t want to know! but mostly it was the image that the knot would come undone and the sack would slip and then I’d have to finish the session hopping around like a 5 year old at the school sports day…  I brought this up with my teacher and I was told to practise more… there were a few other comments that took my imagination in this direction…

The routine that I let go off accidentally was a distant healing technique… it was elaborate, lengthy and involved and always in the back of my mind was the thought that something had been forgotten or done in the wrong order… So… I’d been using this technique every week for two or three years to respond to distant healing requests via an online free healing group… Every week, I recieved the name of a stranger, sat down for around an hour and then emailed to say that healing had been sent… Until the one day, when I opened up that week’s case and I glanced at the computer screen, and involuntarily made and finger gun and a POOF!!! noise and waved my hand and said – Yeah! Have some of THAT!!! POW POW POW!!! Fired off a one-word email – Sent! and then shut down the computer and went out… Within about half an hour, I was riddled with guilt… oh… what have I done? I spent 3 days filled with anguish not once thinking that maybe I should go back and do it properly and then unexpectedly I was put out of my misery as there in my inbox was a lengthy thank you letter… The first one that I had ever received… all the times before, with all the proper routines… nothing…not one… not that I ever expected one as I figured people who requested free healing from strangers had bigger worries on their mind… But that one email that day changed my views on how I practise…

The knock on effect of these two things is that I teach my students to try on techniques and see how they fit… if something drives you so far into distraction that you can’t think of anything else then you need to think about changing that to something that feels better… and if you do something that is fast, fluid and feels completely natural to you then don’t worry about whether it’s right or wrong… let the results speak for themselves…

Well… Like I said, there were several other things that I was going to write about but they got knocked for six when I got a ping via facebook notifications to like a business page…by the business owner who I very colourfully told some time ago,  what I thought of them, their business and the horse they rode into town on… Mmm now I need to be careful what I say here really… ok… some time ago I got myself into a tricky situation with what initially looked like a good opportunity but which turned into something that was beyond farcical… So… thanks to my Libra moon believe or believe it not, I can be the epitome of tact and diplomacy and I tried my damnedest to find something workable in the situation, but then there comes the tipping point and I can’t give you the details  but let’s just say I was asked  repeatedly  to write something for an anthology type book… I’m sorry if this is sounding sketchy and hard to follow but if you manage to get me drunk then I’ll spill the whole tale face to face but be advised that I don’t drink because the cosmos in its infinite wisdom decided that I needed no further help in loosening my tongue and inhibitions I am allergic to alcohol… so… how to describe this book… this book that was the last straw heaped on to the camel who’d had a year plus of lengthy debates about very many things… Ok… the best way to describe it would be to imagine if a bunch of people went to THIS SITE , hit the ‘reionize electrons’ button at the top of the page, printed off what came out, then gathered them all into one book just in time for Christmas land fillers  stocking fillers…

So… not only was my Libran aesthetic nose way out of joint… My Virgo sensibilities went into meltdown after I saw some writing by one of the other authors about port holes (sic) to other dimensions…

And I let go… oh boy… did I let go…

Though there was still a few unfinished details that I needed to sort, so I did return to tidy off the loose ends and then…

And so all this time later … good old fb reanimates old flames… and at first I think – Like your business? Oh ! You have to be effing kidding?! But then I laugh and I laugh and I laugh some more and think… yeah…

So… it may be that I’m having a bitch fest and I’m defragging my brain… But you see, the thing is… most often the way I  let go, is to belly laugh… to see the ridiculousnesses that are inherent in the situation and to connect with that humour… I think we spend too long trying to solve our problems and looking for ways to bring healing and we forget how easy it can be to just let go and to laugh… Admittedly most times I find the laughter pretty early on but the times when the laughter dries up… these are the situations that need to be let go of… And when I’ve been through a sustained shitty period and it feels like I’ll never laugh again… Well, I know further down the line I will laugh and when that laugh spills easily then I will know that I have let it (e)go…

And now I’ll let you go…

Go visit one of my neighbours…

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