My Thoth Lit Up

So… I’ve had a Thoth deck since 1990… though I’ve hardly used it as it just never really seemed to sit right with me. The colours always seemed so dull… And it’s always seemed a very masculine deck to me… Probably because around the time I first encountered it, I often found myself in the company of men who used Thoth, and who would BOOM such phrases as SOLAR PHALLIC OUTBURST!!! or RUIN!!! DEATH!!! DESTRUCTION!!! 😀 yeah… I’ve kept (and still do keep) some very strange company 😀

But… I’ve kept that deck on my shelf and maybe every once a year or so, took it down and had another look, hoping that one day I would find its charm…

So… recently, my friend C invited me over to her place for a Life Path reading and I was very intrigued, as she works with Thoth, using a method that she has been taught by her grandmother. It was too good an offer to resist… So it was, that I came to find myself sat in the sun and finally seeing some colours…

Now, the spread above, started out as a beautifully laid out Tree of Life, but as we talked, we walked the cards around a bit and also added a few…

But the moment when the cards came to life for me, was when C pointed to the 4 of Wands and asked me a question along the lines of ~ What is it that drives your ideas?

And then I did something without thinking and picked up the 4 of Wands and also the Ace of Wands and did this…

Hahahaha!!! Now I see you Thoth!! That is what drives and turns my ideas… Creative sparks, ignition of burning passions… Ironically… SOLAR PHALLIC OUTBURST!!! 😀

I should have listened to those boys!

Suddenly I saw that spread as a living 3D structure… or should that be 4D as it moves through time or maybe 5D and beyond…?

So… there are many paths along the Tree of Life and we walked and talked at length of many things and most things…

But… I’ll share a thread of thought here about the Fool…

So… The Fool sat at the very top of my tree… and our conversation turned to talk of boundaries and how they vary and change for a whole plethora of reasons… And to loosely quote, C said to me … Look at the shape around the Fool… The Fool sets his own boundaries… Imagine them as a trail of light left by a sparkler… You should go away and think about that…

And I had a wry smile… as two days earlier, I had created an image during a free flow of thoughts which I won’t go into other than to say I don’t know exactly how I made this image… but I do know, I won’t be able to make it again… And when I’d made it I looked at it and it seemed deeply resonant to me… but… What was it?

Ha!! Now I knew…

The Fool’s Boundaries… I’d done my homework 2 days before the assignment was set!

But that often happens for me… I have a sense of time and sequencing that would give Quentin Tarantino a headache…

So… anyway… Later that night when everyone else had gone to bed… I decided to get out my Thoth and recreate the spread and see what else I could learn about the Fool and his boundaries…

So… I lay out the cards and I scratched my head…. Something felt to be missing… What was it??

So… I thought… Well! Why have a dog and bark yourself? Hey Thoth! What’s missing? I drew a card… The Ace of Cups…

Funny… The other 3 Aces are already out… OK… the Ace of Cups completes the set… but WHY? What does that mean?

I pulled down the Fool from the top of his tree and placed the Aces around them in the pattern they were in my spread and placed the 4th Ace in the gap like so…

And I looked at it and I thought… Now why does that look familiar? And then I glanced across at the pile of face down cards and laughed… Oh! The Aces are placed like the back of the deck…

So… I turned the Fool…

Oh! OK… the Fool can set his boundaries as and where he likes and sometimes that simply means just turning your back…

Then I laughed some more as I focused in… to the symbol… in the centre… of the cross…

I smiled as I heard a faint voice in my head whispering… and sometimes setting a boundary is knowing when to tell someone…

You can kiss my fluffy tail!

😀